Where

life will not wait

not for my decision

what it brings me

will be what it is

a day of joy

bright and cheery

a day of sorrow

dark and dreary

I have no choice

no control

those of joy

when they come

they're wonderful

I feel all is well

I see myself

on top of the world

those of sorrow

as if from nowhere

they appear

leaving me sad

lonely

feeling buried

beneath my troubles

no way to rise

not from the spiritual grave

that they dig for me

where is the escape

promised from my youth

where I wonder

is that silver lining

that easement

that is supposed to come

with the storms

my search only leaves darkness

the deep grey of a clouded heart

while the comfort is there

being hidden by my expectations

rather than received through acceptance